The whole 9 months

I was to doctors, I was 9 weeks pregnant already.
It was strange, but I didn't felt this till that day :)
The doctor examined me carefully, everything was perfect with me and baby
In 4-5 weeks I could know if it was a girl or a boy

I started looking at life with different point of view, I was not starting quarrels with Etien any more
It seemed I didn't care about his new hobbies any more
I was working the whole, and I started gathering money for my baby. I was working 3 times harder than before ...

And one day I decided to talk to Etien about our future. To clear everything ...

I was already 5 month pregnant, I was paying less & less attention on my husband.
When I suddenly noticed that this was going on every day. He was under influence every day.
He was behaving very strange, coming home late, stopped eating, didn't smile any more, was not saying even a word about our baby. He was stranger in his own family ...
That evening we talked a lot, he promised that everything will be OK, that he will stop doing this the soonest, and that we will grow up our baby together and be very happy. But he lied, he was not going to stop this.
I gave him one month ...
After 3 weeks nothing was changed, I called his father and told him everything, he was shocked.
On the 4th day he arrived, He was the happiest when he saw me waiting for baby.

We had really bad evening, we talked to Eti a lot, but he didn't want to hear any word, he threw a plate to his father and started shouting. I started crying, his father turned Etien from the house.
The other day Etien came again, saying how sorry he was etc. But his father told that he is taking him to France in clinic, where such persons stay for becoming healthy. And that the house where we lived is mine after this.
Etien was very angry, he started shouting, breaking the things on his way, but his father soon made him calm.
They went in bedroom, talked a lot, his father was very angry and was talking in French with him, the other day they went to Paris.
The course of medical treatment needed 6 months. If he will be OK, I promised to receive him back. But if not - next April we should divorce :(
I had terrible days, I couldn't work, all the time I was at home crying and asking god, why this happened with me. What bad did I do in my life to be punished like this :(

This was the worst period in my life,
Have you ever felt such things?